blueberryland

Today, I make a decision, which is to open a blog which nobody,who knows me,knows...the reason is simple,that is, I really do not have someone who can share this with me, maybe I cannot use the word "share",because all these things written here are not something will make people happy, they are my troubling things... because nobody know me a lot, only I can do is to write them here,hope it will make me feel better. I really hope.

Another reason I open this blog is that I really hope it can make me forget someone who I've liked for more than ten years,maybe more longer...but the funniest thing is I say nothing about this to that guy,just because....,I think there are lots of reasons, but the most important is that he did not know me very well,if he know me, I think he will like me,too. And also I am not brave enough to tell him that I like him. I just find no place to keep all these stuff in my mind,so I find here to pull all of them out, and hope it can helps me,and let me get through this.

I hate what I am now... always live the same life everyday. Do the same thing...like go to work, off work, watch some US dramas downloaded from the Internet... it's just like some kind of repeat, and a waste of my life. I should do something more, something make me happy, but I even do not know what can make me happy now, except finding someone who really cares me and also I care.I really want to do some changes to my life. Now I just come up an idea that to learn something, maybe I should go to a class and to imporve my English, and then move forward to learn French...Yes, I do need to change a bit of my life to stop my depression about my life, hope it can work. But sometimes I am a kind of person who really do not act unless there is someone push me. I want to find someone who also want to imporve the English and we do this together, but unfortunately, it seems nobody wants to of those who I know.I just make a decision today and throw it away tomorrow. What can I do???? Who can tell me??? Help!!!